Type of Story: Angst
Pairings: Sharon x Steve, Steve x Reader
Warnings: Cursing, Self Hate
Word Count: 1260
Note: Feedback please. Also, I have nothing against Sharon. Y/N = Your Name
This is after Civil War.
Have you ever been replaced?
Physically, mentally, emotionally, in every damn way that kills you?
I saw her today with Steve. Don’t get me wrong, she’s nice. Her name’s Sharon. Yes, Sharon, sweet, sweet Sharon. She was taller than me, prettier than me, smarter than me. Just better. Steve was my best friend until she came along. She came out of nowhere and now she has him in the palm of her hands. I don’t know what annoys me more. The fact that she’s now his best friend and girlfriend, or the fact that he left me so suddenly because someone better came along.
I always thought I loved Steve to a limit. Best friends. No, this girl came along and made me realized, I wanted him more than I ever thought I did.
Damn her with her curly blonde hair. Her nice smile. Her taller and better figure.
Damn him for replacing me without a care. Damn him for making me love him so much, just to throw me away.
Yet, even after everything…
Here he is again. Here we are again. We’re sitting on the couch, just us watching some mindless TV.
“Hey, you know there’s a new movie coming out,” he says.
“Yeah?” My heart rate starts increasing at the sound of his voice. Damn him.
“Superman V Batman, you love that kind of stuff right? Well, we haven’t hung out much these past days, do you want to watch it?” He smiles at me kindly.
“You got it Captain,” and for that day, everything feels right again. I have my best friend back for a few moments.
Days past before we talk again because he’s too busy with someone else, but did it matter to me? No. Why? Because I was an idiot. Idiotically in love with America’s sweetheart, in love with his smile, kindness, caring soul, and whatnot. I disregarded how he always had me around when necessary.
But still, I believe that everything will go back to the way it was before she came along.
I call him right as I get up to confirm our plans for the movies tonight. He didn’t pick up. I assume it was because it is too early. I get up and out of bed, ready to start my day.
Throughout the entire day I didn’t see Steve, but my hopes did not flatter. I still converse with Hawkeye, train with Black Widow, talk geeky with the green rage monster, eat pop tarts with Thor, and caught Tony up on my crush on Steve.
“Do you think anything will happen tonight?”
“Y/N, he has a girlfriend.”
“Well, yeah. Right. Do you think our friendship will at least be the same again?”
“Yeah, yeah I do,” Tony says setting down his screwdriver.
I let out a small squeal and leave the laboratory to get ready. I didn’t see Tony’s heartbroken look as he sees his friend getting ready for her ultimate heartbreak. He prays for something to happen for her to avoid all the heartache.
An hour later, I am finally ready. I pick up my phone to text Steve and wait for his reply. I go to the living room and sit down to watch a little TV.
Five minutes later, my phone buzzes. It wasn’t a text from Steve so I ignore it.
Fifteen minutes, I double text Steve asking him where the hell he is.
Thirty minute of silence.
An hour and I admit defeat. I have been stood up.
I’m still staring at the TV, but my mind is racing with possible reasons for this. I couldn’t believe it. I wouldn’t believe it. He wouldn’t stand me up. Right? Best friends don’t leave the other hanging like so. I shake my head.
No, maybe he’s hurt, or in danger, or worse.
I stare at my phone again and decide to throw my pride out the window. I text him once again asking him where he is.
He finally replies.
Sorry, you can’t have your phone on during the movies. What’s up though?
My heart stops, I hear white noise, and my breathing becomes slower, shakier.
The hell was he doing at the movies…
My hands shook as I text him. I go over and over what I wanted to write. I erase and retype my words on the screen until it comes out clear and nice.
Just haven’t heard from you all day, was worried.
I stare as the three dots come up again on the screen. I wait and wait and wait for his reply. My feet are bouncing in anticipation.
Finally, he sends me a picture.
The picture is him and Sharon, holding popcorn and tickets to…
Batman V Superman.
Of course he forgot. I’m nothing much. I’m just Y/N with a plain face, boring personality, and hopeless dreams.
I begin to laugh.
I should have known. I should have fucking known. I wasn’t anything to him. I was just a placeholder. He didn’t care about me the way he cares about her, despite the fact that I was there first. I was the one who helped him become accustomed to life after in ice for seventy fucking years. I was the one who stood by him when he fought for Bucky. I was the one who, with Sam’s help, made sure he was safe and not off doing something stupid.
Then Sharon comes out of fucking nowhere and he drops me off like I was no impact on his life.
I laugh because I am pathetic. I waited for this old man to come and get me for nearly an hour. Thinking that I actually had a chance, of not getting him to love me like I love him, but still being my best friend. Still being his best friend.
I laugh and laugh because I thought he still cared. I thought he cared.
I feel someone’s arms around me, and I breath in for a few seconds to smell Wanda’s perfume. She’s hugging me tight, and I finally break down.
I sob into her arms as she holds me.
My head spins and I clutch my wildly beating heart. My vision is no longer just blurred but shaking. I then see that I’m the one shaking.
I should have known.
I should have realized.
I was so damn replaceable for this one bastard who never gave much of a damn about me.
I finally learn the lesson: Don’t ever. Ever. Give more love than you receive. It will destroy you in the end.
I didn’t understand that lesson because Steve had the power to drag my heart through hell, and I would let him do it a second time, and a third time. Because he always makes me forget what I learnt.
I stand up and Wanda helps me into my room.
“You vant to talk about it?” She says, her accent was soothing. She pushes the hair out of my face and hands me a tissue once we sit down on my bed.
“No, no I’m good,” I say.
“Yes,” she says.
“What?” I ask for clarification.
“Yes, you should confront him. It’ll ease your soul,” she says, reading my mind. I nod and just sit there staring the wall. My heart empty and numb, my eyes itchy and red, my ears were still ringing with white noise.
But a small part of my mind still wonders.
For how long did I mean so little to him?
Part 2: Near To Nothing
Part 3: Deserve It
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Your feelings of insecurity around being replaced may be rooted in having low self-esteem. In order to begin feeling better about the situation, it's important to begin building your confidence. One way to do this is to identify your strengths.Why are people so easily replaced? ›
What makes us feel replaceable? Research by New York University (NYU) has put it down to self-esteem. If you have low self-esteem in general and feel like you can be replaced, it's a sort of confirmation bias – you may take as truth.How do you deal with being replaced at work? ›
- Don't panic, you don't know why they are treating you this way.
- Don't make assumptions as it'll make it harder to understand what's going on.
- Be open to talking with your managers and letting them know that you're available.
- Keep focusing on the job and, if you don't have any tasks, go above and beyond.
If you say that someone is replaceable, you mean that they are not so important that someone else could not take their place.How do you say replacement for someone? ›
the process of taking the place of someone or something.What are fears of being replaced? ›
Athazagoraphobia is an intense or irrational fear of being forgotten, or of forgetting someone or something. It may also include a fear of being ignored or replaced.What do you call someone who is easily replaced? ›
"Replaceable." Vocabulary.com Dictionary, Vocabulary.com, https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/replaceable. Accessed 09 Jun. 2023.Why did he replace me so quickly? ›
They simply do not want to face their feelings and the heartbreak that comes with the loss of an important relationship, so they begin a new relationship as a distraction. So, the fact that your ex replaced you so quickly is indicative of the fact that they cared for you on a deep level.How do you get over being dumped and replaced? ›
- Allow Yourself to Feel. ...
- Understand the Grieving Process.
- Practice Forgiveness. ...
- Channel the Energy Elsewhere. ...
- Maintain Your Self-Worth. ...
- Throw Out the Mementos. ...
- Create Your Own Closure. ...
- Embrace the Impermanence of Life.
Explain to the employee why he was chosen to change positions. Highlight the skills you believe he possesses and how he can use them in his transition to the new position. Point out that you believe he can succeed and that the company is behind him. Instill confidence in the employee.What does replace employee mean? ›
Replacement Employee means an employee engaged for the purpose of replacing, an employee on leave, acting or seconded to duties away from his/her usual area of employment.How do you know if your boss doesn't value you? ›
- They don't respect your PTO. ...
- They don't ask for your input. ...
- They don't give constructive feedback. ...
- They don't give you the resources or support to be successful. ...
- They don't pay you fairly. ...
- They don't respect your work-life balance. ...
- They don't share project outcomes.
When a company has a truly great employee, that employee carries value that simply cannot be replaced. They carry deep institutional knowledge of the organization. They have extensive product, systems, and process knowledge. They hold client relationships that have been built over many years.What does replace someone mean? ›
to get rid of someone or something, and to put a new person or thing in their place.What to do if you're being replaced? ›
Moving On — And Moving Up! If you've been down in the dumps because you feel like you've been replaced, give yourself time to process your emotions and then make the conscious decision to move on. It may take several days (or weeks) before the sting lessens but, with time and reflection, it will get easier.What are examples of replaced? ›
- Lisa replaced the receiver. ...
- The old stove had been replaced with a large fireplace. ...
- When Natasha left the room Pierre's confusion and awkwardness immediately vanished and were replaced by eager excitement. ...
- All big industries are replaced by better ones.
verb. If you replace one thing or person with another, you put something or someone else in their place to do their job.Why am I scared of being replaced by my friends? ›
This fear of being replaced is often borne out of jealousy, Dr. Krems said. And one way to cope with it, she added, is by doing something social scientists refer to as friend guarding — actions like excessively praising a friend or cutting down a new rival, for example — to maintain a threatened relationship.What is it called when you don't like change? ›
The fear of change or changing things is called Metathesiophobia. It is often linked with Tropophobia which is the fear of moving. The origin of the word Metathesiophobia comes from Greek 'meta' meaning change and phobos meaning fear.
Changes in our circumstances can bring about anxiety because we must start all over again and move away from our comfort zone, especially if the change is out of our control. This can also possibly cause feelings of disempowerment or loss. We are naturally wired to fear change as humans.What are signs of losing friends? ›
- You Don't Understand Each Other Anymore. ...
- You Don't Talk. ...
- Your Friendship Isn't a Priority. ...
- You Have Nothing in Common. ...
- You Don't Call Them First. ...
- You Aren't Comfortable Around Them. ...
- You Miss the Old Days Most.
- #1 You Put in Most of the Effort. ...
- #2 They Actively Avoid Connecting Deeply with You. ...
- #3 They don't ask about you. ...
- #4 They Stop Reaching Out or Making Plans. ...
- #5 They Regularly Cancel Plans. ...
- #6 They Make Excuses.
You give more than you take.
At times, one person may need more than the other. But if a friend is constantly a taker and rarely a giver, it's not a balanced friendship. If you're always there for them but they don't do the same for you, it may be a sign to move on.
6. sluggardly, dilatory, indolent, lazy, slothful.Is it a red flag if a guy moves fast? ›
Caution: if someone is moving too fast, it's one of the clearest relationship red flags. This is an indication that they are either desperate or that they want to catch you before you discover some deep, dark secret.What is the no contact rule after a breakup? ›
“The No Contact rule is where you don't call, text, or communicate with an ex in any way after the breakup. It includes not talking to their friends or family about them or the breakup itself,” says dating and breakup coach Lee Wilson.Is it a red flag if a guy moves slow? ›
There are all kinds of reasons a guy wants to take it slow. Most of them are things you shouldn't worry about. In fact, they can be good signs that he is super serious about you and wants to make sure he's paving the way for a long-term, serious relationship.Why is silence powerful after breakup? ›
Silence gives your ex a chance to notice your absence and really miss having you around. If you stay in touch with them during the aftermath of the breakup, they might not get the chance to miss you properly.What are the 5 stages of being dumped? ›
They are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance, according to Mental-Health-Matters. These are the natural ways for your heart to heal.
Exes may return in some cases. Since couples break up for various reasons, the circumstances of a breakup may impact the potential for reconnection. A recent study showed that 44% of Americans have gotten back together with one of their exes after breaking up with them.How do you lay someone off with dignity? ›
- DO: Speak face to face with all departing team members.
- DO: Get to the point.
- DON'T: Blame others for the decision.
- DO: Show empathy for the departing employee.
- DON'T: Make the layoff up for discussion.
- DO: Offer guidance to the employee in transition.
- Thank Them for Their Time. Curating a cover letter, tailoring your resume, and going through multiple rounds of interviews take up a lot of the candidate's time. ...
- Offer Feedback. ...
- Be Mindful of Your Language. ...
- Keep Your Message Generic. ...
- Encourage Them to Apply to Other Positions.
In most cases, being laid off is preferable to being fired because you stand a better chance of getting another job and receiving unemployment insurance. Another employer is less likely to see you as a risk if you have been laid off, whereas being fired implies unsatisfactory performance.When should you replace an employee? ›
- Poor Performance and Lack of Drive. Employees who fail to meet their employer's expectations in any respective field are at the risk of getting fired. ...
- Violation of Company Policy. ...
- Stealing. ...
- Too Many Absentees. ...
- Unethical Behavior. ...
- Misuse or Damage of Company's Property.
Research by SHRM suggests that replacement costs can be as high as 50%-60% with overall costs ranging anywhere from 90%-200%. Example: If an employee makes $60,000 per year then it costs an average of $30,000 - $45,000 just to replace that employee and roughly $54,000 - $120,000 in overall losses to the company.What does a replacement position mean? ›
Replacement hiring is typically employed when there is an immediate need. For example, a leader decides to retire and a role becomes vacant. Then, either a subordinate fills the role or an external candidate is hired.How can you tell if your boss wants you to quit? ›
- You're being micromanaged. ...
- Your workload has been reduced. ...
- You're excluded from important meetings. ...
- You're being ignored. ...
- Your efforts aren't recognized.
Distracted behavior, a lack of eye contact, sneering, or eye rolling are all pretty bad signs.How do you tell if your boss is testing you? ›
- You observe an increase in your workload. ...
- Your boss expects you to work more hours per week. ...
- You receive unusual tasks. ...
- Your manager doesn't respond to your messages. ...
- They often recommend you to other colleagues seeking advice. ...
- You no longer receive questions regarding your activity.
- Accept that it might be a process. ...
- Don't feel like you owe them a huge explanation. ...
- Talk to them in a public place. ...
- Block them on social media. ...
- Don't argue — just restate your boundaries. ...
- Consider writing a letter. ...
- Consider creating distance instead of separation.
To replace a person or thing means to put another person or thing in their place. A lawyer replaced him as chairman of the company. American English: replace /rɪˈpleɪs/ Arabic: يَسْتَبْدِلُHow do you tell someone doesn't want you in their life? ›
- #1 You Put in Most of the Effort.
- #2 They Actively Avoid Connecting Deeply with You.
- #3 They don't ask about you.
- #4 They Stop Reaching Out or Making Plans.
- #5 They Regularly Cancel Plans.
- #6 They Make Excuses.
- #7 They're Always Busy.
- #8 They Don't Respond or Lack Enthusiasm in Responses.
Try to be nice but stand firm. Don't say, “Hey, you've turned into a jerk and our friendship is over.” Try something like, “Our friendship has become a really negative force in my life, and I think it's best if we stop being friends.”How do you cut off someone you have feelings for? ›
- Acknowledge the truth of the situation. ...
- Identify relationship needs — and deal breakers. ...
- Accept what the love meant to you. ...
- Look to the future. ...
- Prioritize other relationships. ...
- Spend time on yourself. ...
- Give yourself space. ...
- Understand it may take some time.
They recently replaced the old phone system. The team's manager was replaced last season. The patient needed a transfusion to replace lost blood. They've appointed a new minister to replace the one who just retired.What is the action of replacing someone? ›
replace, supersede, supplant refer to putting one thing or person in place of another.How do you tell someone is over? ›
- Tell your BF or GF that you want to talk about something important.
- Start by mentioning something you like or value about the other person. ...
- Say what's not working (your reason for the break-up). ...
- Say you want to break up. ...
- Say you're sorry if this hurts. ...
- Say something kind or positive.
Be honest. State what you feel, but do so kindly thinking about the person's positive qualities. If your love asks if there is someone else, decide if you should say, “This is not about another person, but about us. We are not working.” Or if there is another person, be careful how you admit the truth.